yay..baru balik!!
lethargic arhh..Just got back home.lols.didnt i just say that?
Lols. Hanisah youre so slow.tsk tsk.
Made my own lipgloss and body cream.
Got the lipgloss but where on earth is the body cream?
tsk tsk.forgetful me. the seniors who were helping there were nice ppl,
since they helped us and evryting. Its was kinda funy, cuz Maisarah couldent stop swiveling in those movable stools. Then since the chair could be adjusted, we went up down up down and played...hehes.
Mr Ng was also there, idna awkward cuz hes a physics teacher and we're all about chemistry and he doesnt know much. poor teacher. then the lady who was like sort of teaching us gave a little 'makeover' to me. I dont know why the toot evryone was so darn interested at me being put on make-up, like they've never seen tons of other people do it b4. Staring at me like im some kind of speciman or sumthing. hishh. i felt so nervous and malu. then carmen go n take photo. haiyooooooo.nape lahhhhh. its just a little makeup, why be so enthusiastic bout it?
kinda cried my eyes out just now. all cuz i never expected some people that I know would actualli think of me like this. They're the ones who're changing.Not me.I feel that being nice is worthless. But im too nice and friendly. Dunno why. I just cannot stop.But nobody except for some ppl kinda noe how im feelign inside.I guess they dont too. Nobody cares to be in my shoes and look from my point of view or perspective. Nobody.All they know is to assume,assume and assume with no evidence or proof. Insults being thrown, yet when they ask Im not given a chance to explain. What kind of freakin shit is this?Tell me?Somebody?Its just sooo fcuking shitty la arh. Its all a whole load of bullshit and crappiness.Seriously. I just feel like given these peeps a good lashing. But i cant be bothered cuz it wastes my precious time. I feel that being caring and nice, to them its just a facade i put on. And Im doubting their sincerity and niceness to me. Why, god, do characters like this exist? I know that i have not done anything wrong so far. Im just being me,myself and I. I guess that beating around the bush is kind of cowardy. No courage to say straight to me. Im so miserable. Im crazy, bubbly and garrolous. Thats me. But deep inside myself, Im hurting badly.Im a very sensitive person. I just wish I can disappear from all of this. Its making me lose focus on my O levels. Even when I study, it penetrates my thoughts. Its kinda like 'belum duduk lunjur dahulu' these people. Thank god there is comedy to keep me entertained as well as studies n homework for me to lure away from these painful things.
Sister's dancing infront of the mirror. I think she tebiat oredy.Lols.
Bye ppl.
Well, i guess this is one of life's challenges.